Having had major surgery at the end of 2017 laid me up for a quite a few months with a gradual return to work for the next 6 months. Somewhere in your mind you think that it is holiday time and you plan all of the things going to get done!
Well that's not exactly how it happened with 2 trips a week for rehabilitation and feeling weak and unable to return to normal life for a while. I guess it has taken a good 12 months to recover and get back to my old self.
My oldest brother also passed away from Bowel Cancer in August and although we had about 3 months from diagnosis it is still difficult to reconcile this loss in my heart. I spent many a wonderful day with him in hospital and not one to skirt the hairy issues of death and dying we had interesting conversations on the matter. I surprised myself on how I held together and gave him the benefit of all my years of nursing (I worked for years in Cancer Care) and which he earnestly asked for. I would get a call from his daughter asking for me to visit. I live an hours drive away and lucky I had a very very understanding boss!
It was a time of mending and healing of rifts within the family (we are part of a large family) and I guess that was his legacy as a big brother.
As the months pushed on I threw myself into everyday activities such as work, making a home and being a parent and grandparent. It always amazes me on how life goes on when you feel it should stop and grieve with you. Every now and then I would pick up my embroidery or sewing and do a little. It's always a good thing to keep busy.
But time is a good healer and it's time to sweep out the old year and bring in the new and start looking forward to a wonderful year ahead and many new challenges.
Happy New Year 2019.